omg today's the saddest and the happiest b'dae of my life >.< saddest cuz i had meet the parents....which wasnt so bad for me la but some ppl kinda got into trouble >.< haha but overall today was really a v happy b'dae for me XDXD
OMG I'M SO GAN DONG LA!!!!! THANK YOU JELLY N ZER N FALALA N Jr N GODWINNNN n 08A201!!!!! T_____________T
there are many things which i dont understand in my life.
ARRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MEET THE PARENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PLEASE BEHEAD ME NOW!!!!!NOWNOWNOWNOWNOW!!!!!!! T_____________T
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SOMEBODY PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME ABOUT EOM!!!!!!!! T________________T
Everytime I think I'm closer to the heart
Whenever i step outside, somebody claims to see the light
today's a slack dayyyy!!!! was supposed to stay at home and MUG...and i'm so not mugging T.T
ARGH here i come, my beloved straight 'U's...T.T I CANT BELIEVE IT i was so damn fricking cloe to passing gp...lyk, 0.00000000000000000000001 pts....T.T
had dragonboat in the morning....haha abu n bahiah n serene n cynthis they all sang b'dae song for me (was kinda maluating) but it was nice!! XD haha dragonboating was really fun!!! yea it's all about the inportance of teamwork and sutff...and we learnt how to coordinate well with ppl...and made alot of new friends!!! XD haha...was paddling halfway when abu told everyone on my boat to sing b'dae song...haha den the four diff language thing popped out again...omg was damn touched la!!! haha n Jr frm another boat kept shouting happy b'dae T.T now the whole world knows alr T.T haha but overall it was nice...altho this didnt include the time where i attempted to splash water at another boat and whacked my head with the paddle...omg baluku going to grow out tmr T_______________T
haha DEN came meet the parents...MS SIM RMB MY B'DAE!!!!!!! OMG MISS SIM I LUV YOU!!!!!! haha yea she was kinda inspiring n it ispired me to work extra hard for my promos...i was damn relieved to have miss sim back la seriously >.< it's lyk this weight is being lifted...T.T
was damn tired when i finall ywent home...took bath...wanted to slp...but jelly told me she was coming over...haha cuz usually when jelly comes over we'll emo with the comp n talk...at least that was how i was expecting to spend the rest of my b'dae...BUT NO....tt girl decided to surprise me again o.o haha so when she called n asked me to open the door, i saw xioa hui standing in front of me holding a b'dae cake (brownie i mean o.o) haha with those candles tt never go out...wah pinag blow 5 times still relight can?!?!!? haha!!! nvm exercise diaphragm XDXD
haha...so as usual they sang...and we ate the brownie...and then they decided to go out >.<
so i aske dthem if anyone else was coming cuz i tot lyk since e two of em den can go w my family to eat dinner or smthn...den they told me zer and SANDY'S coming o.o (haha obviously the SANDY wasnt sandy the real sandy couldn't make it) haha...it was actually jude la...but i seriously tot it was sandy can...haha...ok my third surprise in this day? o.o haha! so we kinda went off to eat at TM (cuz zer cannot go city hall T.T) yea ate at ajisan...where they treated me to this ramen which is quite nice XDXD omg feel so xing tong for them can T.T
haha they gave me this gigantic milk bottle thingy with lots of marshmellow inside.... and notes la...haha(OK WAD IS UP WITH TT I'M NOT THAT YOUNG K >.<) haha n a jester hat which they asked me to wear -.- along with a pair of slippers cuz my old ones r dying n worn off >.< OMG WAS SO GAN DONG LAAAAAAA!!!!!! THIS IS LYK, ONE OF THE HAPPIEST B'DAE I EVER HAD!!!!!! thank you for taking time off juz to celebrate it i really really appreciate it >.< thank you everyone who smsed me to wish me n all who wanted to celebrate on 25th but couldnt cuz i was sick T.T PEI HSIN LOVES ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!! seriously didnt expect so many things to happen on my b'dae T.T GAN DONG ALR OMG I FEEL LYK CRYINGGGGGG *tears of gratefulness*
haha ok i feel lyk i'm over reacting >.<
ANW, TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND EVERYONE, THANK YOU!!!!! *HUGS* PEI HSIN WILL TREASURE THIS DAY FOREVER AND EVER!!! XDXD
hey cheer up k! i noe tt u have alot of problems and tt you're v stressed by everything's tt's happening to you, but juz wanna let you know tt no matter wad happens, you'll always have a group of friends standing together with you, supporting you all the way!!! dont be so sad anymore k if anything happens u can always confide in us and let it off your mind...everyone's really caring for you so if you need any help or anything, we'll definitely be there for you!!! I LOVE YOU!!! you're lyk, one of the greatest friend i've ever had XD stay happy n bubbly k!! *hugs* XDXD
8:31 AM.
" Friday, July 25, 2008
i nvr go sch today cuz i'm having rather bad stomach aches and had to use the toilet alot...so...yea didnt wanna go sch...
den my mum ask me DIEDIE muz go for tuition so i had to drag my sorry ass ALL the way to balestier (WHY IS IT SO FAR AWAY?!?!?) ALONE....and the whole lsn i didnt know anybody cuz they were all sec 3s...and alyba n alvie didnt come cuz they alr had theirs last saturday...so i had to suffer ALONE in class w all the alienic ppl...ALONE....
ok why do i make myself sound so lonely o.o
haha yea anw...was having chi tuition halfway when Jr called me n asked if i ws ok n if i was at home...i didnt rly suspect anything la cuz i was in the midst of tuition and i wasnt rly thinking much T.T suddenly got alot of ppl call me during tuition dunno why...haha!
anw yea was on the way home when jelly called me n told me she was emo...lyk she make it sound so real la!!!! I TOT SOMETHING BAD REALLY HAPPENED K!!!!!!! T.T so i was rushin home den i saw a bunch of meridians at the void deck (i was thinking that they were mad to be at my void deck o.o) and den i saw this godwin-like creature (turns out it actually WAS godwin -.-) and then jelly n zer...at first i tot they were doing PW at my void deck (lyk who the hell in their right minds would do that -.-) haha anw...Jr n falala suddenly popped out of nowhere!! and then they said "HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI HSIN!!!" OMG I WAS DAMN SHOCKED CAN!!!!!! haha i was stunned on the spot la so didnt expect this to happen!!!!!!!! T__________T
the starbucks muffin w e candle is so cute la omg it shall be my breakfast tmr *drools* XDXD
haha they started to sing b'dae songs in all sorts of language la...even did a canon and an A capella o.o I WAS SO DAMN OTUCHED KAY?!?!?!? THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!! T.T
haha invited them all up to house to talk n cam whore abit...my parents were damn overwhelmed la haha lyk why got so many ppl suddenly pop out -.-
my class so sweet!!!! they gave me this box with all the messages written inside...THANK YOU 08A201!!!!!! i'll treasure this box n everything in it XDXD I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!! haha even tho u celebrated in advance i still appreciate it alotalotalot!!!!!! <33 I LOVE Y'ALL!!! XDXD
6:46 AM.
" Tuesday, July 22, 2008
like, WHY THE HELL AM I WATCHING THIS CHEENA SHOW TT MY DAD'S WATCHING NOW?!?!?!? it's abt this weirdo trying to teach us values and enlighten us about the ways of life in those chim chim tounge twister-ish words....
he juz changed the channel for a split second and my hopes were going up!!!! BUT WHY MUST HE SWITCH IT BACK?!?!??! WHY OH WHY OH WHY OH WHY!!!!!!!! argggggggggggh going bonkerssssssss T__________T
alvina's games room is freaking scary. muahahaha. especially when i'm in it makin weird noises XD
ORGHHHHHHHHHHHH ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
*pulls out a few strands of hair*
I WANT TO SQUASH SOMETHING!!!!!!! XDXD
shall go (attempt) to mug. or rather, ATTEMPT to attempt to mug >.<
6:01 AM.
" Monday, July 21, 2008
i will not live to see the morrow sun T.T
tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow, creeps in this petty pace o.o haha ok why am i sprouting lit nonsense....ARGH WHY DID I TAKE CHEM!?!?!?!?! *bangs head on the wall* OMG CHEM IS THE !@#*!@)#!@#*-IEST SUBJECT EVER!!!!! T.T
YARGH!!!!!!! I SHALL STUDY HARDER!!!! YES I WILL!!!! bu nen gu fu ren jia de qi wang >.<
THANKS FOR BEING MY PERSONAL TUTOR K!!!!!! omg now i feel quite stressed haha got standard to live up to T.T OHMAN!!!!! yes pei hsin shall work hard n not ppl's efforts go to waste xD
HAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!! I AM NOW GONNA ATTEMPT MY VECTORS 3!!!!
omg turning into a mug monster T.T
7:18 AM.
" Monday, July 14, 2008
i've been listening to depressing holy ochestra music lately...OMG...am i turning suicidal......
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO muz change my music genre >.< it's becoming too holy for my own good....
4:37 AM.
" Thursday, July 10, 2008
Of what it means to know just who I am
I think I've finally found a better place to start
But no one ever seems to understand
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Oh yeah
You're the remedy I'm searchin' hard to find
To fix the puzzle that I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile
When I find you it will be alright
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Been feeling lost
Cant find the words to say
Spendin' all my time stuck in yesterday
Where you are is where I wanna be
Oh next to you, and you next to me
Ohh...
I need to find you
Yeah
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you (I need to find you)
I gotta find you (yeah)
Your the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you(I gotta find you)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you (I need to find you)
I gotta find you (I gotta find you)
Your the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Yeaeaahhh
I gotta find you...
ZERLINA!! all your fault la now i listen to this song for lyk 198091378092734019287 times....>.<
it's a nice song tho!!!! haha the tune's damn nice XDXD
yea pei hsin's beginning to see some rays of light...haha i'm nt as stressed la altho there's still remnents of emo-ness in me >.< ok la i'm not emo...maybe juz abit frustrated...haha!
BUT PEI HSIN'S BACK TO NORMAL!!!! AND I WANNA KEEP IT THIS WAY!!! XDXD yea work hard for promos!!!! MUAHAHAHAHHA!!!! where's my chicken essence?! four cups of coffee a day YEA!!! XDXD haha i sound lyk a mug monster tt's addicted to caffine >.<
I WANT A GUA OUTING!!!! HURRY COME UP WITH ONE BEFORE I BISH YOU ALL!!!!! XDXD
7:00 AM.
" Tuesday, July 08, 2008
It seems to me that all of us have lost our patience.
'cause everyone thinks they're right,
And nobody thinks that there just might
Be more than one road to our final destination
But i'm not ever going to know if i'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction
And i'm not sure which way to go because all along
We've been going in the same direction
I'm tired of playing games, of looking for someone else to blame
For all the holes in answers that are clearly showing
For something to fill the space, was all of the time i spent a waste
'cause so many choices point the same way i was going.....
So why does there only have to be one correct philosophy?
I don't want to go and follow you just to end up like one of them
And why are you always telling me what you want me to believe?
I'd like to think that i can go my own way and meet you in the end.
But i'm not ever going to know..........
ARGH....promos are scarily near...and i'm nt doing anything....
WAD THE HELL'S HAPPENEING TO ME?!?!? it's so damn stupid...i'm supposed to be fricking out over my horrible marks and here i am not feeling stressed...i'm stressed cuz i'm not stressed...what sense doe that make...
i feel lyk i'm feeling happy cuz i was forced to...haha...lyk, it's not right to be unhappy? i dunno...i dunno wad r my feelings now T.T
haha...ok this is one of peihsin's blue days where she grows mushrooms in the corner and emo by herself >.<
8:45 PM.
" Sunday, July 06, 2008
i realised that most of the songs i listen to are the damn angsty kind...omg am i turning into an angsty kid...>.< NOOOOOOOOO i wanna be a happy kiddo!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA...
anw...gonna go out with zer...she wants to go to hokkaido fair...BUT I DUN WANNA GET STEPPED ON!!!!! T.T the crowd ystd was horrifying enough T.T
ahahaha...my drive for mugging has completely vanished T.T
7:09 AM.
" Friday, July 04, 2008
life sucks...i'm so gonna turn into an outright geek...i get relieved when i dun get single digits even thought it's a U....WAD AM I TURNING INTO?!?!??! WHY AM I HAPPY WITH JUST A U GRADE?!?!?!!? the worst thing is i dun even feel emo or urgent after knowing my results...omg wad am i turning into?!?!?! i'm pissed at myself T.T
yes i need some kind of remedy...mayb i shld get zeros for everything so i can knock some senses into myself? O.o NO ok that so wont happen >.<
YES I WILL WORK HARD TOWARDS A BRIGHTER FUTURE!!! *imitates gai sensei* hAHAHAHAHA THE YOUTHFUL VIGOUR!!! XDXD
ok...i'm getting this burst of mixed emotions....hahahaahahahaha!!!!!! i cant stop laughing!!!!! XDXD XDXD I MISS MY SENIORS!!!! T.T
HAVE FUN!!!! those going to all the LTCs XDXD
ARGH i'm FRIGGING HAPPY AND SAD AND PISSED!!!! >:S
this is how fricking screwed i am.